I want to give an award to all of you single parents out there. I don't know how you do it. I think that you are amazing. i wish that I could cope as well as you do. I need to find a new coping mechanism. This is way too hard. I think that I've cried more in the last week than I have in my entire life. You know how they say tie a knot at the end of your rope and hang on, I think that my knot has come loose and I'm going to fall into space or down one of those big huge holes like Luke skywalker when he got his hand chopped off. It's my goal to do this better. I'm not sure how to do that but I'm trying to figure it out. I think I need a nanny HAHA! Anyways that is my rant for the day. I think I'm going to go hide in my room and let my kids kill each other! Maybe they won't notice if I go to bed...